Wednesday, November 19, 2008

“Dat Kate!”

Kate was in good spirits this morning in Autumn of 2007. After being so testy last night. Play play play. Even raided Gwen’s kitchen. Tho she did eat the eggs I scarambulled up with Irish cheddar. Play play play. She’s such a third grader and 8 years old. Soon to be 9. Kate is my wild, crazy ass daughter. And I love her madly cuz she is so daggone crazy. And I'm good spirits myself this morning, and being a jive talkin' country boy from the South who done relocated to the Northwest started talkin' like one. Which drives my kids crazy cuz they hate it and laugh.

Talia her little stepsister who I love like crazy, too is in Kindergarten and usually misses the bus. Today, however, she FINALLY got on the NEVERONTIME GOSHDANGDABNABBIT bus! Her bus is never on time with what seems a different driver every other week. But it is yellow, and that alone makes Talia proud to ride it. At 8:47 AM when I was about ready to throw down the kitchen towel I'd run out with from cleaning up in the kitchen and stomp on it her Big Yellow Schoolbus pulls up to the curb. With yet another driver! I hurry back home. There! Here comes Kate’s bus at 8:50 AM, but no Kate! She’s upstairs playing with the doll house toys after I’se done told her to put some shoes on her foots and git on out the do’! Befo I done didded walked Miss Talia to catch her everchanging bus stop. Oh Lord!

“KATE!” I yelled, sounding like an adult version of Junie B. Jones’s husband. “Yer bus is here! Whatchoo be doin’ upstairs!!!”

She flew down the steps barefooted.

“The bus looks like its goan!” I shouted as I ran to the office and peeketed out the window. The big yeller bus had pulled down to the end of the block and was just waiting for Katie, lights blinking. Apparently Kate has already developed a reputation with the driver, a regular driver, nice man from the Horn of Africa. One learns patience living in countries plagued by perpetual warfare and famine. How big a problem, after all, is an American child late for the bus when you spend your life drinking tea with bullets and bombs zipping all around? It brought back memories of when I used to work as a license massage therapist there was a time many of my clients were immigrants from Ethiopia, Eritrea, and Somalia. They all used to fight each other, many had battle scars such as healed bullet wounds on their bodies, and they all peacefully took turns here in America on my massage table. And the big yellow bus still sat out there in the street with lights a-blinkin'.

“It’s still heah!” I hollered once mo’. “It’s awaitin’ fer yew, girl!”

Kate looked askance with her perfectly combed fluffed out mane of golden hair, spun on her sturdy left heel and whirled thru the gate, actually latching the gate this time, racing barefoot to the bus, with a Croc under each armpit, and no jacket. And it was just starting to mist rain.

And she got on the bus. Knowing that if she missed it she had backup plan B (a nice, loving Daddy) and backup plan C (Daddy would likely make her walk to school) and even backup plan D (she can sneak out on her bicycle when she’s not supposed to).

Dat Kate! She is SOOOOOOOOO much like KRISTINA JEAN KATAYAMA whom I'm supposed to MARRY one of these years that I can’t STAND it! Always waiting past the last minute with utter fearless confidence and relishing the madness of that testosterone rush….oops, adrenalin, adrenalin, right, Kristina?


William Dudley Bass
September 25, 2007



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Naked Barbies at the Bus Stop

Tuesday Morning, May 6, 2002

Kate, my 4 year old, crawled around the corner pushing a big, grey toy horse with a shaggy, black mane. A naked plastic woman was bent backwards across the saddle of the horse with her large, plastic breasts pointing up and out into the parlor. Unlike her limbs, her breasts were immovable. I was amused by the way Kate had the doll face-up over the horse instead of draped face-down as "in reality."

Morgan, my 9 year old, stares.

"Oh, my God," she blurts out. "A naked Barbie!"

Hmmnn, not only is my third grader a self-professed Atheist, who like many Atheists continue to use the Lord's name, but she has become increasingly self-conscious about her pre-budding figure.

"Kate, are you ready to go to the bus stop with me and Morgan?" I asked.

"You are not taking a naked Barbie to the bus stop!" Morgan declared.

"Aw, shoot, Morgan. I'm gonna take us all to that nudist colony at Snoqualmie this summer so we can all walk around naked with everyone else. There's nothing wrong with being naked. There's nothing wrong with your body. Old people. Babies. Fat people. Skinny folks. All walkin' around naked."

"Yeah!" Kate goes. "We all walk around naked inside our house anyway."

"Eww! Gross!" Morgan makes gagging sounds.

At first I thought it was funny. Then I wondered if I was being disrespectful of where Morgan was in her development. My agenda was for her to feel that our bodies were natural, normal, and healthy as they were and that nothing was wrong with nudity. I didn’t stop and think at the time that maybe there was nothing wrong with wearing clothes, either. I just want people to get that there are choices, not moral issues.

There was a time at Orca Landing, an urban cooperative my family used to live in, all the members walked around naked from time to time, some more so than others. Then gradually we started wearing more and more clothes. Things like having children around with grandparents and other relatives popping over to visit them. An incident occurred at a party with children around where two men and a woman had sex out back in our hot tub. The resulting uproar motivated us to shake our heads as such irresponsible and disrespectful behavior, especially considering the professions of at least two of the folks involved, and caused us to implement new rules regulating open nudity. We banned sexual behavior out in the open in our common areas including the hot tub for sure.

We used to let Morgan play naked in our front yard. Then one summer Gwen decided to make Morgan pull on underwear whenever the child went outside. At first I disagreed, and then I relented. Fear of sexual predators cruising by. An article had come out in the daily paper that our Greenwood neighborhood had one of the highest concentrations of relocated "sexually disturbed" men. A housemate remarked it was "socially and developmentally appropriate" for Morgan to now have to wear clothes outside. Morgan, still a preschooler, was deemed "too old" to run naked out of doors.

Is Morgan's newfound self-consciousness with her body a normal, healthy developmental phase where the biological organism instinctively seeks to protect itself, or is it inculcated from social and cultural conditioning, including what many alternatives consider the aberrations and distortions of mainstream culture? Isn't peer pressure but the reflection of mainstream culture and media indoctrination, or is it a normal, biological herd-and-pack mentality to protect the vulnerable at a crucial phase of development? Or, the ultimate cop-out answer, "both?" Because if it is "both," then so what? What then?

I realize that one thing I appreciate about sex-positive culture is that it honors the body and all body types. Yes, I know, we should not equate nudity with sex. But that is not my point. As human beings have a body, and human beings are sexual beings from before birth to (after?) death, I seek to instill respect, honor, and self-love for the human body as a whole even in minors.

And yes, a naked Barbie ... and a naked toy horse both made it to the bus stop. But all the real people wore clothes. And not just because of protection from the elements or from imagined predators.



William Dudley Bass
May 2002



(C) by William Dudley Bass

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Snow Haiku Flurries

Snow Haiku Flurries,
Sort of,
By the Wenatchee River
Near Plain, Washington
Winter of 2007-2008

I shovel snow beneath cold stars
Moonshadows fall between tall trees
I dig my path to the tallest tree

I woke to white sunshine
And zero degrees outside
The river slowed with ice

I stood at river’s edge
Watching ice float downstream
Silver in white sunshine

Snow spins from frozen branches
Glitters as fractured glass
Ice sparkles in sunshine

Snow spins frozen
Glitters like glass
Sparkles in sunshine

Children laugh in snow
Cold crackles white
Bright is my deafness

Breath hangs frozen in air
Amid clusters of evergreen branches
Where I walk past cold trees

Western red squirrel poises
Halfway up a ponderosa pine
And barks as I carry firewood

Yesterday two pickup trucks filled with snow
Race ahead thru lowland rain
Bemused I watch them go

Sun burns cold across winter skies
Settles down behind yonder ridge
As I gather up another armload of firewood

Deep in dark woods
Next to one silent cabin
A giant crucifix twinkles red with Holiday lights

Gorgeous woman one year away from forty
Sinks silently into our hot tub
Naked her eyes behold me

Clouds blow in across the Moon
Snow falls from darkness
Trees whisper in the wind

She emerges from the hot tub
Slips on her bathrobe backwards as snowflakes fall
Tiptoes to the railing, bends over and wiggles

Together we join with the darkness
The lights within become one
We slip in the snow and laugh

Our bed is warm before the fire
We slide under heavy covers
And snuggle with pillows

Sleep is most divine
Though often dismissed
I close my eyes as breaths flow free



By William Dudley Bass
January 2008


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When Kurt says “May you be fully disillusioned….”

Rain drops
crater
my mind.
Free of clay
and gravity
I see the Moon
from Space
and realize
I am already
dead.
On the mirror side of Life
my memories
live
until forgotten.
Surrender to the flow of all that is
tender…and sweet.

Time for a drink
With my friend Kurt
Who once enlightened
Said “May you be fully disillusioned.”
OK, I said
Make mine whiskey.


William Dudley Bass
2008



© by William Dudley Bass

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Deatharoni & Cheese

Five seconds before my conception
Death rides me
With a wild laugh.
I awake raw and open
From cannibal dreams.
I feel my heart beat…
…still inside my chest.
My heart opens behind closed ribs
A searing bright chakra sun
Opens as a giant hand
And grabs me from the inside out.
Shakes me apart,
My beating blood hot heart.
I want more
I want me, all of me.
I am me
My self.
Self.
Ego dies in life
Self dissolves with Death
Nothing left
Not even deatharoni and cheese.


William Dudley Bass
2007 in British Columbia



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Titanomachius

Blindfolded,
Justice springs unbalanced
From swinging scales
Of Judgement.

Revealed,
Our Totem Animals
Emerge from Id
As jackals and hyenas
Who eat puppies.

Twelve Titans all,
We devour ourselves
In cannabalistic incest.

Amok beyond Tartarus,
Sired by excess of heart
Our skeletal hands
Rise with Chthonic howls
To clasp your lips
And with Cultish frenzy
Pull you back
Into Abyss.



William Dudley Bass
2007



© by William Dudley Bass

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Crazy Making: A Bad Poem with a nod to The Beatles

Hey Gwen,

In the news today,
O boy,
I heard the government say,
Ahoy,
All the airlines have to play
The way we say
And all passenger information
On all international flights
Has to be reported directly
To Homeland Security
For
Terror
Drugs
Guns
International Pornography
O boy
Oh no
Uh oh
So I ran a comb thru my hair
And disappeared into thin air
Locked in a jail
By the CIA
With only a pail
And a bed of hay.
George W. Bush,
American President by a Bloodless Coup,
Says our "Constitution is just a goddamn peice of paper."

“The most successful dictatorship is one that presents itself as a democracy and enrolls the majority of the public into that belief.” Yep.

And on top of that I-5 & I-90 from central Seattle to SeaTac to Bellevue will be shut down to 1 lane of traffic each way for 19 days of mass construction beginning tonight.

BOOM!!!

I shave my head in shame.



William Dudley Bass
August 10, 2007


© by William Dudley Bass

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Jihad & Crusade




Holy war holy war
War most unholy
So much superstition
Too much bloodshed
You gotta go
You gotta go
You gotta go away from me
So get away from me
Moses and Jesus,
Buddha and Mohammed,
Even you Confucius
And Zoroaster, too,
And all you Pagan Deities
Glorifying human sacrifice
And to tell the truth
It’s really all you Believers and Gospel interpreters
Who blame all the rest of us for your own blasphemies,
Not our avatars and sages.
The rest of y’all move away from us.
Y’all gotta go
Gotta go
Go go go
And leave my kids alone,
Leave my kids alone.
So begone
begone
Not to the stars beyond
But back to the past.
Forever.
William Dudley Bass
2007, 2008
(C) by William Dudley Bass

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Barreling Across America with my Daughter

Morgan and I made it home with all our stuff safe and sound in the wee hours of Saturday morning, about 2:30 AM, April 14, 2007. It was quite a trip. And it was a special trip, a long overdue opportunity for some father – daughter bonding. Morgan is my oldest daughter of three and my only biological offspring. She had turned 13 a month earlier. I love her dearly, and it was painful to stand aside and watch her grow up and apart. I didn’t expect it to happen so soon, but at 12 she started taking off.

Saturday, April 7 - First, flying from Seattle, WA to Richmond, VA via Chicago was uneventful and smooth, albeit we landed at 11:30 PM that night. Ray Hinde, my sister’s second husband, was generous to pick us up at the airport as our rental car plan fell through. He had just driven to the airport the night before to pick up his son & daughter by his first wife. They had buzzed in from Arizona. On the plane I read David McCullough’s history book 1776 and was struck by the irony of me, a Virginian living in Washington, reading about George Washington, himself a native of Virginia and in whose honor my adopted state was named after. And Morgan is a native of Washington and is visiting Virginia. The events of that gripping narrative, however, describe a situation that changed history. If the American Revolution had failed there would be no “Virginians” living in “Washington.”

Even so, we paid my Aunt Helen a midnight visit down in the Fan, the Bohemian area of Richmond. Helen, my daddy’s Big Sister, had a box of gold-rimmed china from her mother to give Morgan, who is Mary Yeatts Bass’s great-granddaughter. Helen, a morning lark, was kind enough to stay up late for us to visit. It was stunning to walk into her home in the Fan. On every wall was beautiful and vibrant art. On the table was another project in process. Helen excitedly led us into her basement art studio to show us a number of fun and expressive pieces she was crafting from a mélange of seashells, driftwood, stones, beads, and paints. And also where she tripped over a cord and smashed to the floor. Morgan was thrilled to see Helen again and it was her first visit to Helen’s organic and living in-home museum and studio. I wished we could all visit more often; tough to do when we lived 3000 miles away. Helen, thank you for being such a gracious host beyond the Witching Hour. And Morgan feels awe to recieve her great-grandmother's china.

Ray drove us on back to the old Bass farm outside Rice. He and Beth have a new home on a hill overlooking the lake formed by the Sandy River Reservoir. He took us to my deceased parents’ empty house. Morgan and I spent the remainder of the night there, wondering if we would see ghosts. I slept very poorly.

Sunday, April 8 was Easter and a bit of rumble tumble family reunion. First we went to Sharon Baptist Church where we’re related to half the folks there. Morgan got to limp around with her broken foot and meet various distant relations. It was especially good to see Cousin Beverly Bass Hines and her husband John and their kids who just celebrated their wedding anniversary. One of her daughters, Jessie, was out in New Mexico riding horses and going to school. Beverly, it’s inspiring to meet others who jumped the broom a few times but finally got it right.

As usual I can’t sing a lick and stood there awkwardly holding the hymnal and mumbling notes. Reminded me of why I shy away from church. That afternoon was a sibling reunion of me & Morgan with my sister Beth and her family, including her Arizona stepkids, and my brother Joe and his family. It soon morphed into Alli’s birthday party. She turned five. Alli, sort for Allison, is Beth and Ray’s daughter.

Easter was cold. Cold! It felt so white with clear Spring skies hijacked by Winter. There had been an extended heat wave prior to our visit with temperatures up in the 70s. Now frigid air blasted thru struggling trees and across the Sandy River Lake. We struggled to put up Alli’s trampoline she got for her birthday. But the drop in temperatures combined with that wind zipping off the lake made it too miserable to stay out long. We all wanted to see spring flowers and warm sunshine and animals coming out of the forest.

Monday, April 9 was a work day. Beth, Joe, & Ray in various ways helped me load up the 16-foot rental truck that cost me over $1500. I am grateful for all your help. Thank you. It was hard, awkward, and clumsy work.

Last night, Sunday night that is, was the last night I slept in my parents’ house, and for Morgan, her paternal grandparents. It felt so strange. No one else was there, just my daughter and I. Morgan was quite brave and felt “kinda psychic.” She was glad I was there with her, too. The house I grew up in and spent much of my life my first two decades seemed an empty shell, forlorn and swept clean by grief, bereft of meaning. Without Bill and Dot’s aliveness sizzling with their mythic yelling matches it was just a house. Felt weird and spooky and yet purposeful. Chilly bumps and haunted imaginations made us jumpy.

I had a nostalgic recollection of when I was really young; the old Bass family farmhouse up on the hill where 5 or 6 of my great-aunts & great-uncles lived was the center of family activity, not my own house. All full of hustle-bustle. Eventually, though, all of them died one by one and the once great house fell into disrepair and is now nothing more than a haunted shell where even the memories fade. I remember the homes of both sets of my grandparents being so full of life and energy, and also my own parents, especially that last special Christmas of 2005 when all of us siblings and our partners & kids where there to delightfully overwhelm Mom. Now nothing’s there but stirred-up dust and dead bugs in the windowsills.

Tuesday, April 10 – Morgan and I spent Monday night down at Joe and Sally’s. I stayed in their guest room while Morgan slept in Cousin Lydia’s room. She and Lydia apparently discussed a wide range of topics from the Bible to Harry Potter. I’ve been spending a lot of time at Beth’s and wanted to give her a break and stay at my brother’s for a change. He lives back in the woods. Real pretty. But when we awoke, it was colder than ever! Below freezing! Frost covered the ground and our breaths steamed the air. We pulled on hats and gloves, and went on down to my parents’ home to get the moving truck. Cranked ‘er up, turned on the heat, and scraped ice from the windows. Joe came down there to see us off before disappearing into the woods to hunt game. Morgan got a kick out of his Southern drawl and just how goofy weird I and my brother are.

Morgan and I pulled out in our Budget Rental Truck for Seattle. We said farewell to her grandparents’ empty home and rolled away at 7:30 AM EST. After a brief stop in Farmville to pull cash out the bank, we drove across Virginia and down into Tennessee on a wide detour to see the Harvins. It was a beautiful drive and Morgan got to see the Appalachian Mountains change from the Blue Ridge to the Roanoke Valley to the Alleghenies to the Cumberland Plateau. We stayed at Aunt Marianna’s & Uncle Laurence’s home in Murfreesboro, just SE of Nashville. Morgan and I pulled in at 5:30 PM Central.

We had a blast visiting with them, distracted Larry a little bit from his post-op discomfort, and got to see my cousin Debbie and her second hubby Tim and all their children. We had fun seeing the similarities between Morgan and Haley, Debbie’s oldest daughter. It’s remarkable how certain family traits jump family trees. Beth and Joe – y’all get yer behinds down to Tennessee. It’s a beautiful state and the Harvins are a joy to hang out with. Mary and Larry, I was so struck by your beautiful home with its new floors and polished furniture. And thank you for putting us up for the night. Hope Larry feels better.

Tennessee displayed an abundance of spring flowers and budding leaves, but like Virginia felt surprisingly cold. Mary and Larry fretted about the April freeze damaging all their lovely plants.

VA>TN Seattle here we come!

Wednesday, April 11 – we drove thru Nashville rushhour traffic and a torrential downpour. Weather is freaky. Everywhere we drove East to West it was unusually cold after unusual warm spells. Such wild oscillations in weather is associated with global warming’s volatility. As global warming confuses many folks who make the understandable mistake of collapsing “weather,” “temperature,” and “climate” with some areas getting cooler and others hotter but with increasing trends toward a hot planet that may in turn trigger an ice age, I like what one scientist proposed as a better name for climate change: global climate disruption.

Anyway, we drove northwest out of Tennessee, across Kentucky and parts of Illinois, all the way across Missouri, and not-quite halfway across Kansas, staying in a crowded Econo Lodge hotel in Junction Gap outside Salinas. It was interesting to see immigrants from India who managed the hotel run around in Kansas in thin clothes and flip flops complaining of the cold. The hotel was dingy and smelled of smoke. Morgan and I both hate that odor. But our room had TV and internet service, so we indulged ourselves in a little technological euphoria before falling asleep.

My one major disappointment of the day was in St. Louis. I wanted to tour the Gateway Arch and go up inside with Morgan, but were unable to find parking for the truck. After driving around in circles and not finding proper clearance we gave up and got back on the freeway. It was my third time to St. Louis and each time something weird happen that prevented me from going up inside this magnificent arch. First it was an out-of-control tractor-trailer jackknifed across the exit ramp, the second time it was closed for repairs, and the third we couldn’t park our big ass truck. At least we got to cross the Ohio and Mississippi Rivers, they surged with a primeval power, and Morgan tried to take digital pictures of state signs as we rolled across one border after another. Most of the time, however, she photographed herself sitting in the cab of the truck making goofy faces.

Regardless of that particular disappointment, Morgan was struck by the lush green beauty of Tennessee and Kentucky in Springtime. She fell in love with the natural beauty of these two states. It was also a challenging drive as I hit gusty winds in mid-Illinois and battled winds all the way into Kansas with both hands gripping the wheel. At times I felt I would sail off beyond the guardrails. I had renewed respect for the truckers whose rigs were as sails in the wind.

TN > KY > IL > MO > KS, oh what a drive, what a drive. Quite an adventure, but oh I feel so tired. Morgan is a great traveler.


Thursday, April 12 – It was bitter cold with subfreezing winds moaning across the plains as we left the hotel and drove through Salinas. Morgan and I barreled across the rest of Kansas, eastern Colorado, and up into Wyoming, and halfway across that state. We thought Kansas was beautiful with its rolling grassy hills and Great Plains. We were clearly in the West. And the high plains of Colorado are truly flat, flatter than Kansas. Both Morgan and I, accustomed to enclosed greenery where trees obstruct views, were enchanted by wide-open expansiveness and distant horizons.

Perhaps one of the more synchronous moments out there on the Great Plains occurred when I whimsically chose to answer my cell phone while driving. It was a business colleague back in Seattle.

“Where are you?” he asked.

“I’m way out in Kansas driving across beautiful country way out in the middle of nowhere,” I replied.

“Tsk, tsk,” he grunted. “There is no such thing as ‘the middle of nowhere.’”

It just so happened I was in Kansas halfway between Oakley, where his mother was from, and Colby, where his father was from and where he grew up. I reminded myself what I often tell people who either dis the locals or dis the outsiders that we’re all human beings from somewhere on the same planet and therefore we are both all locals and all outsiders one and the same.

Smack dab at the Kansas-Colorado border, however, we hit snow. Heavy snow. There was a car towing a U-Haul trailer from Georgia. “Just Married” was written all across the car. We both pulled over one behind the other as the famous log-cabin style border sign “Welcome to Colorado.” I remember the first time I saw this sign, in one of Mary and Larry’s slide shows from the 1960s or 70s on their first trip to the Rockies before I finally saw it in person in June 1986. The young husband from Georgia got out stared all around him, standing there in shorts and flip flops, cuz hell its hot back yonder in Georgia, and says in a syrupy Southern accent that makes me proud to be Southern: “Lorda mighty, can yew believe all this heah snow?”

A State Trooper pulled off the side of the road behind us and told us all “to git.” What the hell were we gonna do? Blow up the flippin’ famous “Welcome to Colorado” sign? But we didn’t wanna argue. It was too cold. The Georgians were moving to Denver, and we had to get to Seattle.

The weather forecasts were of spring blizzards. The snow fell thick and furious. Should I stop or should I go? Stay and get buried, or risk running out of gas in a snow drift. Media images of monster blizzards danced in my tired imagination. I chose to get as far as I could, maybe outrun the storms, and kept a full tank of fuel. We drove through two heavy snowstorms, all part of the same blizzard, which I heard later buried parts of Kansas & Colorado. We drove around the worst of the storms, there was nothing much around Denver and Fort Collins, avoided the highest mountains, hit more snow around Cheyenne, and slept scrunched up in a truck stop in Wyoming, where it got down to 15 degrees.

As I couldn’t really sleep, a few times I got up to wander around inside the truck stop. These interstate truck stops far out in the outlands are like small, self-contained mini-cities. One could wander around looking at endless rows of shot glasses, cowboy hats, baseball hats, makeup kits, cigarette lighters, knives, batteries, screwdrivers, wrenches, quarts of oil, boxes of condoms, cases of cheap beer, cases of Coca-Cola, cases of Gatorade, maps of every state, and Afro picks. One of the clerks behind the counter was a beautiful woman, beautiful in a down-home, down-to-earth working on the ranch kind of way. No-nonsense but shy, she flirted with me and I fantasized about her. She was lonely, I listened to her with respect, and she got that I respected her. We made small talk, but I had no desire to go anywhere with this pretty lady so I wished her well and hit the road with Morgan. We headed west through a gap in the Wyoming Rockies, pulled over at another freezing cold rest stop to sleep awhile, then pulled out for Utah as the sun warmed the stormy skies behind us.

KS > CO > WY = one long day.


Friday, April 13 – Drove across the rest of beautiful Wyoming into Utah where the weather was clear and sunny and cold with reports of folks skiing up in the mountains. We skirted the Great Salt Lake, had a scary near-miss with a tractor-trailer in a construction zone outside Ogden. I mowed down some orange cones to get out of the way as that truck and mine were funneled together in a confusing, poorly-marked tangle. We stopped in Ogden at some local burger joint, burned out on McDoos.

I ordered a big, fat, juicy burger jammed with cheese, bacon, lettuce, tomatoes, pickles, everything. Morgan and I called it a “Mormon burger” because everywhere we turned around there were Mormon slogans and tabernacles. Well, that Mormon burger got back at me by bursting apart in my hands when it bit into it. Saucy goop blew all over my shirt, jacket, and sleeves. Morgan started howling, I started laughing with a mouth full of Mormon burger, and that shook the remainder loose upon my belly and lap. Morgan dove for her camera.

After I cleaned up, we headed north into Idaho. There we drove across the longest expanse of emptiness and I came close to running out of gas. It was nowhere to run out of gas, either. Spied a faded green dinosaur off in the distance. An old but still functioning gas station that used the brontosaurus emblem smack in the middle of a barren no-man’s land. Everyone in there was fat, smoked cigarettes, glared at us through horned rimmed glasses, and shuffled around in gosh dang house slippers or work boots. Cost me $81 to fill up. Damn! But I am grateful to gas up the truck. Then we drove across the Snake River plains of Idaho up into the mountains of Oregon, crossed the Columbia River Gorge into Washington State, and on home on the 4th day of this Big Drive.

Drove WY > UT>ID>OR>WA, another long ass day. Whew!

Saturday, April 14 –Morgan and I actually got home at 2:30 in the morning. I had started hallucinating from sleep deprivation. As I entered the outskirts of Seattle I saw an enormous purple snake, big as smokestacks, curled up on an overpass. OK. No prob. Very matter of fact, like I encounter big purple pythons every day, right? Then on the next overpass stood a gigantic golden Easter bunny. Wow. Check out that big ass bunny rabbit. Enormous like a gigantic golden statue of Buddha. Then the giant Easter Buddha Bunny dissolved into trees and street lights, and I realized I was hallucinating.

“Dad, pull over and take a nap!” ordered Morgan.

And I did. For about a half hour. Later that afternoon and again on Sunday Kristina and I spent hours and hours unloading furniture both into our Seattle home and into a storage unit for our river cabin, which we plan to close on the purchase of this May 4 and soon start spending lots of time at. We’re grateful for my parents for leaving us such nice stuff. Really beautiful stuff as well as practical stuff (I even brought back a grain shovel to shovel snow with and a pitchfork to poke fokes in the arse with).

It was a special trip for me in other ways, too. Morgan is entering adolescence I feel us drifting apart already. So it was a really good bonding experience for my daughter and me to fly out to Virginia together and drive back. She’s done this once before, at about 3 or 4, but hardly remembers it. She is a great travel buddy, never complained, and appreciates just being able to see the changing landscapes. We knew it had to be this way for this particular trip, as she was out for Spring Break and needed to get back in time for school and me to work, so we didn’t do much site-seeing and exploration of points of interest other than what we could see from the road. I also wanted Morgan to experience the enormous size of our nation and our continent and see the changing landscapes, different vegetation, shifting weather, grow sick of McDonald’s, and hear different accents.

Gotta go get me some sleep!


William Dudley Bass
April 2007, November 2008


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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Trench Warfare Today and Now

Over hot coffee
I study faces
From almost a hundred years ago
Torn apart in the First World War
Which was neither the first nor the last
But one of the most horrific.
Trench warfare
Massive artillery bombardments
Machine guns lines of fire
Flame throwers
Poison gas
Rotten corpses unburied by shells
Poison air
Tanks
Barbed wire
Mud
Splintered forests
Rats
Lice
Typhoid
Dysentery
Men lived in trenches
You stand up
Bullets punch your skull
Shell fragments rip your face
Bacteria
Viruses
Fungi
Protozoans
Unseen things breeding
Everywhere on everything
Eating
Septic
Zero privacy
Ahhh….my gut screams!
Extreme high number of injuries above the chest in the trenches marked the
Great War of 1914-1918,
Art blossomed by men deranged,
Painting and writing to liberate themselves from horror.
Masks by a corps of artists covered mangled faces
Rescued from battlefield carnage.
My mind makes a collage of masks and faceless faces
From this Smithsonian magazine article
Over my an image of my own face
Black coffee splashes.



William Dudley Bass
2007 & 2008

Alexander, Caroline. “Faces of War: Amid the horrors of World War I, a corps of artists brought hope to soldiers disfigured in the trenches.” Smithsonian Magazine, February 2007. http://www.smithsonianmag.com/history-archaeology/mask.html


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Mom Passes On: Ruminations

It was indeed a dark and stormy night when the phone buzzed with the news. It was November 15, 2006, my brother’s birthday. That wasn’t what the news was about, though. Waves of cold chills dashed across my body. I steeled myself to see my Mother’s ghost. There wasn’t, however, anything remotely ghostly amid the crashing storm. In the darkness of pounding rain and gusty gales I wasn’t quite prepared to be scared out of my wits. After all, I wasn’t even properly dressed to greet Mom unless you considered a 47 year old birthday suit appropriate for such a passage.

Mom had been battling cancer since 2003. “Battling cancer” doesn’t even begin to describe the war itself. It is far more than the appearance of cancer cells and invasive tumors that seek to hijack and consume the body. The immune system degrades. Diet and nutrition suffers. Repeat secondary infections by bacteria, fungi, and viruses do tremendous damage and like squads of vicious hit men end up doing the killing. There’s the emotional, neurological, and psychological toll. There’s an enormous social toll and the rippling impact on family, friends, neighbors, businesses, essentially all of one’s relations.

Cancer itself is an umbrella term for a messy web of mysterious diseases with multiple causes that mutate into one monster after another. And though a lot of folks are not always comfortable with the curious topic of money, cancer extorts a staggering financial cost. Is it any wonder we apply military terms to“dis-ease?” And perhaps, as humanity comes through millennia of slaughter to finally confront the useless futility of war, it is time we too consider embracing cancer and its runaway cells with something other than mortal combat. But war is the approach my feisty old mother chose.

Long ago I moved out to Seattle, Washington. I loved the West Coast and the Pacific Northwest in particular. Nowhere else have I ever encountered such a unique combination of lush rain forests and rugged deserts, of wild ocean, inland seas and lakes, grand alpine mountains, mighty rivers, roaring creeks, empty canyons with ghost cataracts, magnificent islands both big and small, sprawling ranches, cool resort towns, massive snow-cloaked volcanoes, and a truly post-modern, progressive Pacific Rim city. And I was 3,000 miles away from the land and family of my origin. My parents were city folks who became farmers. After settling down on their Virginia dairy farm in the mid-1950s they rarely traveled anymore.

When they did, most of their travel was regional. The mountains of Virginia, Tennessee, and North Carolina and the beaches of South Carolina were as far as they went. Yes, a few times they went further, to Florida and Texas, once to Arizona’s Grand Canyon, and my Mom even went to the British Isles. Before that my father was in the Navy for five years. He traveled all over the planet, but after he settled down on the farm he realized he was done with long-distance traveling. So Mom and Dad never made it out to the Northwest, and after a period of regular visits to Virginia I rarely made it back home.

Travel is such a big deal to me, however, and I feel sad my parents never traveled more. My mother loved to travel, and deep down I felt my Dad appreciated it. So I often felt I was traveling vicariously for them, especially for my mother, and took lots of photos for them to see. Slide photography of dynamic landscapes was my forte, and my slide shows sat organized in boxes for them to see. But they never visited me out West, it was too much for me to bring all those slide carousels back East, and as this was in the era before affordable, quality digitalization, Mom and Dad never got to see my slide shows after I moved West. This meant not only did they not see blown-up slide photos of all those national parks, urban monuments, historical sites, and wild scenic areas, but they didn’t get to see all the photographs of their eldest son entering middle age and their grandchildren growing up. I feel sad, and my parents felt sad I didn’t take “regular pictures.”

The last time I saw my mother really healthy was the Summer of 2001 toward the tail end of her 69th year. I didn’t see her again until the Summer of 2004, during the first of several “Mom-almost-died” crises. After not seeing her for three years, I was to see her four times over the next two. And now she was dead. Gone forever.

When I got the call that dark and stormy night, I was north of Seattle up on Whidbey Island, the longest island in the United States. I’d just come up the day before to rent a cottage on the South end of the island to get away and write. As much as I would miss my partner Kristina and my children, I so looked forward to being able to catch up on my sleep and to write without distraction. For just a few days. A couple of weeks earlier, during a busy trip into British Columbia, Mom had another and quite severe crisis where she seemed about to go any minute. It was thought she might even pass away a particular night. Twice that weekend I almost got on a plane to fly to Virginia. But, no, I chose to wait. And now a ferocious Pineapple Express storm was blasting the island with torrential downpours and explosive bursts of rain. Hot air from Hawaii slammed into cold air from the Arctic, and kaboom!, you got the horizontal hurricane Northwesterners call the Pineapple Express.

I had made my peace with Mom’s death when I last visited her earlier that Summer of 2006. During that late June and early July I visited her every day where she rested at an eldercare/rehab facility. Sat down there next to her for hours while I showed her hundreds of relatively recent photos and video clips stored on my laptop. Although I felt sad I was absent during her actual moment of death I also feel solid I made the right decision to stay put in Seattle rather than jump up to fly home every time there was a crisis 3,000 miles away. I had the responsibilities of young children and getting a handle on a new business that was rocketing off. And while I missed her and felt guilty I wasn’t there on the scene helping out on a daily basis as my siblings were, I was clear that I felt as complete as I ever could be for living so far away.

Apparently during her last weeks my Mom worked on herself to get complete. Her home health care workers would tell me over the phone she had been doing a lot of praying and talking “with the Lord.” They’d never seen her do that before. Like she was getting ready to meet her Maker. Mom’s team of home health care providers was amazing. They kept me updated as they worked around the clock to serve her in her final months. Apparently they watched Mom move through various phases. They witnessed her rage, her tears, her bitterness, her railings, her whining and moaning, her resignation and apathy, her sorrows and joys, her battles to live, her preparations to die, and finally, her acceptance of what is. A couple of the home care workers swore they saw my daddy’s ghost standing there next to Momma. He’s been dead a couple of years.

She died while that storm raged on Whidbey Island. The power was out. I had to pack up in a hurry by flashlight. My cell phone had rung in the wee hours of the morning. Intuition had me go to sleep gripping the phone in my hand. I don’t sleep with my hearing aids on, so I depend on the phone to vibrate to notify me of incoming calls. And the vibration awoke me to the news. Branches were crashing down all around me as I drove away from the cottage toward the main road down to catch the ferry back to the mainland. I felt fear as a thick trunk sheared off the side of a nearby tree. All the chaos seemed a blur, however, of long-connected relationships that crystallized during Mom’s wake and funeral. Death felt heavy and mournful. The Grim Reaper had blown in on a storm and was sweeping a giant scythe across the land.

Back among the living, however, I had to restrain my glee and joy at seeing old friends and family members at Momma’s wake and funeral. While Momma lay dead in an open coffin, the rest of us live folks hugged and shook hands and caught up with one another. Stories flowed from one to another. Even my old principal was there, the terror of Prince Edward Academy from my first all the way through twelfth grades. The grown-ups called him Bobby Redd, but we kids called him Mr. Redd, and I still do.

And there was Marjory, granddaughter of stalwart members of my parents’ Sharon Baptist Church. Long ago we were in the same elementary school and in the same church groups. I had a crush on her from first through second or third grades, but was way too shy to ever, ever let her know. I thought back then she was the prettiest and most fun girl around. She was too busy playing with all the other kids to ever notice as far as I could tell. Heck, we were just little squirts. Then she moved away and I didn’t see her for many years. Once in college I ran into her quite by accident, asked her out, and away we went for pizza and conversation. That was it.

Now, decades later, she looked marvelous. We flirted. Just a little bit. I felt the old crush come back strong. Amazing. She was friendly and asked me lots of questions and I’m embarrassing her just writing this I’m sure as I never told her how I used to feel about so her long ago. I felt myself perk up when she gave me the impression she was now single. Well, I am in a committed partnership with Kristina, of course. I knew nothing would ever come of revisiting old school crushes again, so I caught myself. Marjory sure looked great, though, had me turning my head, oh just turning my head a little itty bit. She was just delightful to talk with. Funny how the mind can become obsessed with what-ifs and what-might-have-beens, but I took a deep breath and let it all go. And said good-bye. My boundaries are clear. And she said good-bye.

And in the midst of it all my mother laid dead in a coffin. Waxlike. Surrounded by flowers. Her outfit was beautiful. But it didn’t look like her. Personally I don’t like open-casket funerals. I think they’re bizarre and weird and an invasion of privacy. My momma all laid out in public like that. Alas, sigh, that was what folks seem to want, and I decided I was OK with it. And I did not realize that for some people it would the last chance to see her after hardly ever seeing her, such as my daughters.

The last time Morgan and Kate saw their grandmother was over the Christmas holidays of 2005. She had pulled through yet another strenuous knocked-down, dragged out battle in her war with cancer. Mom looked surprisingly good for a woman in her early to mid 70s struggling with cancer. It was a wonderful reunion, stressful in some ways, joyful in others. And she got to meet my fiancé and domestic partner Kristina and Kristina’s daughter Talia. My mother and Talia bonded over that week.

So it was heart wrenching to stand in line at the Seattle airport with Morgan and Kate as Talia’s cries, heavy with grief and disappointment carried through the airport. Money was tight. For financial reasons Kristina and Talia would not be joining me on this trip home for my Mom’s funeral. So Kristina dropped us off at the airport and held Talia wailing in her arms while she waved goodbye. It was sobering. I felt intense sadness that I went through an extended period of financial difficulty that made it challenging to afford flying my kids to Virginia.

As the wake came to an end that Friday night before Momma’s funeral, visitors said their goodbyes and drifted home. My brother Joe and I stood talking at the opposite end of the room from our mother’s casket. I turned around to look for Morgan and Kate. Morgan was about 12 and a half years old at the time, and Kate was two weeks away from turning eight. Talia, who stayed behind, was 4 and a half.

The four oldest of Momma’s granddaughters stood side by side at the side of her coffin. Left to right stood Joe and Sally’s daughters Lydia and Jessie. Next to them, also left to right, were mine and Gwen’s, Morgan and Kate. All four stood there peering over into the open casket at their grandmother’s embalmed body. She was dressed up so pretty, although it didn’t quite look like her either but it did. In her prime my mother had been a beautiful woman. She just enchanted my father. Now in her death she lay before four of her grandchildren.

A ripple shuddered across their shoulders. And in a moment they heaved with tears. Big, heavy, wailing sobs. Shuddering and letting go, grief and surrender and goodbye forever and sadness and regret and wishing there was more time to get to know one another all rolled up and exploded in waves of tears. I started to move toward them. My brother reached out and stopped me.

“Let’em all have a little time to themselves there,” Joe said.

He was right. It would be the last time before her casket was sealed forever. I felt my heart heavy with grief as I suppressed an empathic urge to cry with my daughters and nieces. It was an image of grief and farewell seared into my memory. After a few minutes, Joe and I walked on over to comfort our girls. That night we gave Kate her Grandma’s Furby, a talking, chirping, cooing fuzzy robot that looked like a cross between an owl and a lemur. It was still in the box.

“This is for you, Kate,” I said. “Grandma’s last Christmas present.”

“Yes,” beamed Kate. “This is my Grandmommie’s last Christmas present to me.” And she hugged it.

The funeral was the next day. All a blurred kaleidoscope of crisp memories. I read a Robert Frost poem from the altar. “Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening.” It was one of Mom’s favorites. The minister spoke at length in a good way, full of jocular recollections and serious reflections. To my surprise, Hoc and Nancy Hughes, the parents of my ex-wife Gwen, arrived for the funeral. After all, my parents were the other grandparents of their grandchildren, too. I was honored and so moved when Nancy, whom I had grown quite fond of, hugged me I burst out in tears and bawled on her shoulder like a little boy. I sure missed my Momma, and she wasn’t coming back either.

There were awkward moments at the graveside service, too, like whether or not to throw these flowers we were given to hold into the hole in the ground. One lady slipped near the edge and for a moment I dreaded the possibility she would slide beneath the casket into the grave and break her neck. Or a leg. But strong arms assisted her to a chair.

The weather was sunny and cold. Red Virginia clay lay exposed around the graveyard. People gathered in little clumps to exchange greetings and catch up. The women in high heel shoes staggered carefully to keep their points from sinking into red dirt. A slight breeze blew across the Piedmont landscape, that rich Virginia mix of rolling hills and gullies, of woods and fields, of cultivated land edged with wildness. Homesick country.

Mom was buried next to Dad. They lay on a hillside overlooking a small pond below. A large willow grew at one end of the pond, and oak woods mixed with cedar beyond. It was a peaceful cemetery, Trinity Memorial Gardens, on the edges of Sandy River outside the village of Rice. An occasional roar from a semi barreling down Rt. 460 on the other side of the hill would thunder over the boxwoods and through the bare branches of November trees.

Back in my parents’ home, after all the cakes and pies and casseroles were brought over and devoured by so many good people from so many states across the nation, my Uncle Larry broke out the rum. Sailor Jerry’s Spiced Rum. Good stuff. He and I and my Uncle Al downed a few shot glasses. Uncle Al then brought out a bottle of merlot, filled a glass, and lifted it in the air. A sunbeam shining through the kitchen window caught the glass and made it sparkle.

“Drinking a glass of red wine is like drinking a glass of sunshine,” Uncle Al said, still holding up the glass. And then he took a drink. Yes, a glass of wine is like a glass of sunshine.


William Dudley Bass
2006 – 2008
November 18, 2008

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Friday, November 14, 2008

Daddy’s Ghost

As Momma lay dying of cancer, my father’s ghost was sighted at least twice. But the home care ladies and nurses who saw him begged me not to have that advertised back then as they didn’t want to be regarded as crazy or superstitious. Or maybe lose their jobs. Once a woman was bent over cleaning the floor where my mother had just thrown up on the carpet. She glanced up and there he was. Bill Bass himself. His ghost, anyway. He stood there in the corner with his hands clasped in front of his privates like he used to in real life, looking down at her scrubbing the rug. It was clear as daylight that ghost was Bill Bass, and you could see right through him, too. The moment he realized she saw him, my father’s ghost moved quickly and disappeared in a flash of nothingness. Spooked the shit out of the lady on the floor.

A second time he was sighted by a different person standing next or behind my mother in their master bedroom where my Mom laid in a hospital bed. The woman who saw Daddy’s ghost declared it felt he was waiting for Momma to die and being a little bit impatient about it, too. She said it had a distinct feeling to it. It felt as if he was thinking “Dot, what’s taking you so long?” At my mom’s funeral the minister alluded to this incident somewhat obliquely. But my Dad is a warrior, apparently in death as well as in life, and while so impatient when things got serious proved to be the most patient one of all. Again, the moment that ol’ ghost realized he had dropped his invisibility cloak or whatever, he disappeared in a heartbeat. Snap! Gone, just like that.

My mother never commented on ever seeing a ghost. “Oh, I wouldn’t want to,” she once said with a shudder. “It would scare me to death.” But she kept looking and listening for “signs” of Daddy’s presence. And then she, too, was gone. Just like that.

So a few days after the funeral when Aunt Marianna matter of factly announced she was going the spend the night alone after the funeral, I took notice. Maybe she would see a ghost, too. Maybe she would see the ghost of her big sister Dot. First, however, you must understand my Aunt Marianna. She is proud of her logic, common sense, and secular views of reality. My aunt is also married to a serious atheist, my Uncle Larry. Together they are known to relish books debating the historical accuracy of the Bible and the dangerous foolishness of religion in general. Proud Republicans, they bemoan how the Religious Right has so corrupted a political party they value for its traditional conservatism that used to focus on issues such as individual liberty, small government, and low taxes. And this secular Republican would be the last person to sleep alone in my parent’s house. She and Uncle Larry are formidable opponents in any debate involving either politics and religion or both, so I mustered up my courage, walked over to her, and asked “Hey, do you feel at all nervous or scared sleeping by yourself like that?”

Her response was immediate.

“No,” she snorted. “You know I don’t believe in ghosts. There are no such things!”

Early the next morning, she loaded up her car as if sleeping alone in a dead person’s house was the most normal thing on Earth, waved goodbye, and headed on back home to Tennessee. No ghost.

I admit I felt a little disappointed. And I bet that even if Aunt Marianna had actually experienced a ghost, she would rationalize it away not as some proof of God and religion but as a physical reality with scientific dimensions yet to be discerned, measured, and quantified. But I love my Aunt Marianna, and was sad to see her go. Her youngest sister, Nancy and my Uncle Al had left the day before for Texas, all the other relatives were gone, and now it was just me and my girls waiting to get home to Washington State. Ghosts, however, were everywhere in my mind.

So what really is a ghost, I wondered. Is it really the soul of a biological organism? Or all the figment of our imaginations? Is a soul the same as a spirit? Where does consciousness, reincarnation, heaven and hell, purgatory, nirvana, the void, nothingness, celestial cities and heavenly kingdoms, paranormal phenomena, transmigration, and quantum physics all fit in and relate here?

Full, physical death does not actually occur in an instant. Oh, yes, the heart will stop and die. The brain dies fast as a whole organ without oxygen from fresh blood. Organs cease to function as whole entities, but scattered tissues and individual cells take hours and days to die as decomposition sets in. Death is really a process. Which makes me wonder is a soul or spirit composed of the mini-souls or spirits from each cell? Does the spirit or soul leave the body all at once, or gradually, or in a cloudy stream of bits and pieces?

Does a ghost, if it really exists, have choices and abilities to zip about between realms? Are there really separate realms? Is a ghost “spiritually” alive? Does anyone else wonder about these things? How come I’m thinking of such ghoulishness? I read recently that a scientist somewhere was able to reanimate dead tissue. Oh my goodness. Bring on the zombies. Can life of any kind exist without spirit? And maybe the Afterlife exists right alongside Life but our biologically-limited sensory organs and mechanically-limited measuring devices can’t distinguish its vibrational energetic reality. Maybe the Afterlife, if it is indeed as real as this Life, is not a mystery at all, just another existence we can’t quite sense. One day I’ll find out, unless immortality deprives me of that adventure.

William Dudley Bass
November 14, 2008

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Thursday, November 13, 2008

Dad’s Old Chair

One morning in March
I go and find my father’s
Old green recliner and sit in it.
My dog sits at my feet
As my beloved sleeps
down the hall in the bed.
The old chair is cozy and warm.
No wonder my dad used to sleep in it.

I sit and stare out the window
At spring snow melting away,
At ponderosa pines, white birches,
Cottonwoods and old stumps.
Blue emptiness fills mountain skies
Out here in the Washington Cascades.

It would be an alien landscape to my father,
Who died three years and over three months ago.
My brother was spooked by the chair;
Thought it haunted, kind of, and asked me to take it.
Said it smelled too much of Dad.
That chair traveled over three thousand miles
From an old farmhouse in Virginia
To a new western lodge in Washington,
From the Sandy River to the Wenatchee.

Once or twice I thought I sensed my dad back in his chair,
Just left-over energy, an echo of a cherished memory.
Mom’s nurses swore they saw his ghost at least twice;
I wanted to see his ghost, too,
But never did.
My father moved on after Mom joined him beyond Death.

As I sit in my Dad’s old chair
With a dog insisting on being petted,
Pushing its head and lifted paw into my lap,
I surrender to God.
My ego battles with the Divine
Not owning its divinity.
I pray, meditate, contemplate the future.
And as I gaze out the window
I miss my Dad.


William Dudley Bass
March 2008


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My Mom & Death

Brothers,

Recently read Robert Masters' book Darkness Shining Wild. One of his themes is bringing Death out of the closet. Into our everyday lives. Being present to Death. As some of you "older veterans" may recall I was with my Dad during his dying from cancer. That was a cathartic event that catapulted me into the workshop I jokingly refer to as "Nightmare in the City." Now my Mom is going down. After 3 years of battling cancer, almost dying the same year my Dad died, after going into remission & getting better, the tumors have returned and spread with a vengeance. She's terminal, tho aren't we all. Supposedly she has less than 5-6 months left. Who knows? She is in somuch pain now. The fury of the pain blinds her at times and robs her of her dignity. We think we're going to die a certain way, looking good as we go, but often we don't. My dad's death taught me we leave this world as messy as we enter it. Covered in blood and shit. I will be at the Men's Group this Monday, and then fly out to Virginia for awhile, and then again this fall. My Mother's looming death feels like some kind of initiatory bookend. At times this woman was a horror and yet she gave me everything. Life. Love. I don't quite know what to do except to go into it. And unlike some terminally ill folks she does not want to die. She wants to hang on to every breath she takes.


From an Email to Passion Warriors WarriorSage Men’s Group, Wednesday, June 21, 2006

P.S. I am no longer affiliated with this men's group or with Warrior Sage. It has served its purpose during a crucial time in my life and I have since moved on.

William Dudley Bass
November 13, 2008



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